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Abandoned, Broken hearted, Freedom, Letting Go, Lonely, Moving On
Losing a guy is not losing your life.
28 Friday Aug 2015
Posted Failures and Heartache
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Abandoned, Broken hearted, Freedom, Letting Go, Lonely, Moving On
Losing a guy is not losing your life.
29 Friday May 2015
Posted Love and Break Ups
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Break Up, Broken hearted, Confliction, Confusion, Delusions, Disappointed, Fantasies, Freedom, Illusions, Letting Go, Love, Moving On
Lover,
There’s something I need to tell you,
I had a vision and in my vision we were the happiest couple ever.
In my vision we didn’t have eyes for anyone, but each other.
Lover,
In my vision we had a family with no one else to interfere.
Lover,
In my vision I didn’t have to worry about anything. You were a whole man, who provided and protected.
Lover,
In my vision when I cried you comforted me and wiped away my tears.
Lover,
In my vision the only greater priority you had above me was the Almighty Father God.
Lover,
Suddenly my vision began to change.
Lover,
In my vision our perfect family started to disappear one by one.
Lover,
In my vision I could no longer see your handsome face.
Lover,
In my vision I could only see you as a silhouette.
Lover,
In my vision I cried. My heart was deeply saddened by the thought of losing you.
Lover,
Do you know what happened when I went to touch your face?
You vanished.
I stood in front of a mirror in my vision and the truth was revealed to me.
Lover,
You have never existed.
Lover,
I have been in love with a fantasy.
Lover,
You are a ghost.
Man,
It is time to let you go.
Time to forget about how many years I believed you were the lover in my mind.
Man,
My vision showed me I have never loved you.
Man,
My vision showed me that you were only a vessel where I hid the lover of my fantasies.
Lover,
You are perfect in every way.
Lover,
I will forever long for you.
Lover,
I will always love you.
I’m sorry Lover,
I have to let you go because I am in love with a ghost that can never truly fulfill me.
Goodbye Lover.
24 Sunday May 2015
Posted Above All Love God
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Bondage, Chains, Father and Creator, Freedom, Hopeful, Identity Issues, Jesus is King, Lost, Promise
I feel lost.
Lost in my thoughts.
Lost in my emotions.
There are too many emotions.
I’m out of control.
Always abnormal.
I try to act okay, but I can never hide it for long.
I don’t know what joy is.
The enemy steals it from me.
I hate him.
Why has he been able to have an effect on me.
Since birth he has caused me pain, confusion, and endless amounts of drama.
Please let me go enemy.
Get behind me and go bother someone else.
Someone that is your child.
No matter how hard you try,
You will not have me.
God chose me first.
And guess what you nasty serpent??
Jesus died for me.
Jesus died for me so that I would be able to stomp on your head and crush it.
Watch, you will see.
You already know the day will come when your days of tormenting me will end.
Until then I will endure.
Through my tears I will endure.
And when Jesus breaks the chains of bondage,
I will be FREE.
21 Thursday May 2015
Posted Love and Break Ups
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Abandoned, Betrayed, Bondage, Break Up, Broken hearted, Chains, Confusion, Delusions, Foolish, Freedom, Holding On, Ignored, Illusions, Letting Go, Love, Moving On
Bondage.
You forgot to untie the ropes.
I let you walk out the door and didn’t remind you to let me go.
Maybe you did it on purpose,
But you didn’t have to.
I would wait 10 years for you.
The blood trickling down my body is warm.
Warm like the fantasies of how I wanted things to be.
Bondage.
Please come and set me free,
Set me free so you can stay with me.
It’s okay that you did things with them before me.
Just come back and the slate will be wiped cleaned.
Bondage.
Something is so wrong.
You left and didn’t look back.
Did I ever earn your love?
It was so easy for you to move on.
I cry tears over and over again,
But you still don’t come back.
Freedom.
I need to be set free.
Even through my tears I let myself find a way out.
The way out was right before me the whole time.
He never really locked the chains.
He wanted me to go the entire time.
Freedom.
I am free even with my scars.
My scars are from foolishness.
My scars are from love.
The foolishness of being in love.
Love is bondage.
Love is freedom.