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Quote of the Day- By Rihanna “Stay”
26 Saturday Sep 2015
Posted Love and Break Ups
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Posted Love and Break Ups
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07 Monday Sep 2015
Posted Failures and Heartache
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If only I could give up the ability to feel.
31 Monday Aug 2015
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Abandoned, Abused, Affairs, Betrayed, Break Up, Broken hearted, Damaged Goods, Defeated, Delusions, Discontent
Sometimes the pain never really goes away. You just learn to live with it.
28 Friday Aug 2015
Posted Failures and Heartache
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Abandoned, Broken hearted, Freedom, Letting Go, Lonely, Moving On
Losing a guy is not losing your life.
26 Wednesday Aug 2015
Posted Failures and Heartache
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Abandoned, Broken hearted, Failure, False Hope, False Sense Of Reality, Hopeful, Hopeless, Moving On
Will I live forever in your shadows?
I can’t find the courage to move on.
I know to you I am a forgotten memory.
The reality of that being true takes the wind right out of my chest.
I don’t know how to exist without the glimmer of hope that one day we will be together again.
That existence is hopeless and sad.
I feel like I’m locked in a dark room going in circles.
Asking God to take me now.
My hopes and delusions are gone.
I can’t bare another day of nothingness.
My own life has failed me.
26 Wednesday Aug 2015
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Abandoned, Betrayed, Bondage, Break Up, Broken hearted, Confusion, Damage Control, Discouraged, Lost
Thus far, there is no cure for a broken heart. Not even time.
14 Friday Aug 2015
Posted My Mind vs. Normal
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Posted Failures and Heartache
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Abandoned, Alien, Betrayed, Daddy Issues, Damaged Goods, Dueces, Hipocrisy
Everything is okay as long as everyone else is okay.
Talk to me everyday because you need a favor.
I’m always the bad guy.
I will be shocked the day I get a new role.
Why so much hypocrisy??
Don’t forget, I don’t need you,
Therefore I don’t care.
Daddy, be grateful.
You’re getting off the hook just a little bit because they are just like you.
Either they don’t care or their love is conditional.
Expression- My condition doesn’t define me.
I promise that was the real me- Fearless and vocal.
That wasn’t an upswing episode,
That was me.
You’re entitled to your own interpretation of the truth.
The days are over when you were trying to over compensate.
You might think I’m arrogant.
So be it.
I deserve to be catered to because just like he was gone;
You were gone, too
Did I hurt your feelings??
Don’t worry.
I don’t care.
My eraser is big enough to erase 3 years out of 28.
22 Wednesday Jul 2015
Posted Failures and Heartache
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Abandoned, Break Up, Broken hearted, Confusion, Coping Skills, Damaged Goods, Delusions, Depression, Disappointed, Discouraged, Empty Promises, Inadequate, Obsessed
Mr. Man,
I never told you to leave,
But I never told you to stay.
Mr. Man,
You clearly didn’t want to stay.
Mr. Man,
I long for the day I get to hear your voice again.
I’m waiting for the moment you realize you made a mistake and we need to start over again.
Mr. Man,
What was it that I was lacking?
What made you hate me enough to walk out the door and never look back?
Mr. Man,
What I wouldn’t give to have you here again.
To be the complete me with you and have no secrets.
I’ve been in love with you since I was 14.
Mr. Man,
You were my king and no one could keep me away from you.
You shattered my heart and I don’t think it’s repairable.
Mr. Man,
I wish I could tell you “I wish you the best”,
But then that would mean I’m giving up on us; I refuse.
Mr. Man,
The day you have any regrets; I will welcome you back with open arms.
Mr. Man,
You are hallucinatory in my life right now.
Can you please be a reality?
Until we meet again, Mr. Man.
18 Thursday Jun 2015
Posted My Mind vs. Normal
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Abandoned, Abused, Betrayed, Bipolar II, Boderline Personality Disorder, Coping Skills, Damaged Goods, Defeated, Depression, Disappointed, Discontent, Discouraged, Failure, Judgment, Mental Illnesses, Suicidal Side Effects
Life,
I feel so empty, like a hollow body without a soul.
Life,
I feel so lonely, like there is no one that truly understands; that isn’t like me.
Life,
If I disappeared, would anyone even notice?
People have failed me.
Life,
Some people say they care, but I’m just not sure they know how to love me.
Life,
I promise I’m not purposely isolating myself. That’s just the only way I know how to survive right now.
Life,
I’m not even surviving, I’m merely existing.
Why are you so hard on me?
Life,
I have the power and the plan, so why don’t I just end it now?
Life,
You make me miserable right now.
What can I do to get my soul back?
THIS IS LIFE.
Do you have anything else to offer?