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Abandoned, Abused, Betrayed, Broken hearted, Confusion, Damaged Goods, Hopeless, Numb to Reality, Sadness, Self Esteem, Self Worth
Love yourself.
Who self?
You self?
Me self?
Love represents immense pain.
I don’t want to hurt anymore.
Love represents heartbreak.
My fingers are too cut to keep picking up the pieces.
Love represents instability.
I need security.
Love represents inconsistency.
I need structure.
Love represents lies.
I’d prefer the truth.
You selves let’s go back in time, tell me what love is…
The Parents say: This is how I will love you;
I will beat you, but only because you deserve it.
I will invalidate you, but only because you are dramatic and don’t really feel what you say you do.
Eventually I will abandon you, but it’s only fair because you are grown and need to fend for yourself.
The Friends say: This is how I will love you;
I will tell your secrets and talk about you behind your back.
I’ll even make up lies about you.
I will never fight for you, even though you fight for me.
I won’t be there for you when you are most vulnerable and need me the most because our friendship is based on my convenience.
I will use you because you are so loyal and that’s no one’s fault, but yours.
The Lovers say: This is how I will love you;
I will cheat on you and abuse you physically, mentally and emotionally.
When you cry I will act like I don’t see it so I won’t have to comfort you.
I will always prioritize and you will never be number 1.
I’ll accuse you of things and call you names.
I will make sure I watch you struggle financially because it doesn’t matter to me that you’re stressed.
In the end you will always know everything is your fault because your expectations are too high, you have a bad attitude, and you think you’re better than everyone.
Love myself??
Of course I do.
Exactly the way everyone said they would.