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Abandoned, Broken hearted, Freedom, Letting Go, Lonely, Moving On
Losing a guy is not losing your life.
28 Friday Aug 2015
Posted Failures and Heartache
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Abandoned, Broken hearted, Freedom, Letting Go, Lonely, Moving On
Losing a guy is not losing your life.
29 Friday May 2015
Posted Love and Break Ups
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Break Up, Broken hearted, Confliction, Confusion, Delusions, Disappointed, Fantasies, Freedom, Illusions, Letting Go, Love, Moving On
Lover,
There’s something I need to tell you,
I had a vision and in my vision we were the happiest couple ever.
In my vision we didn’t have eyes for anyone, but each other.
Lover,
In my vision we had a family with no one else to interfere.
Lover,
In my vision I didn’t have to worry about anything. You were a whole man, who provided and protected.
Lover,
In my vision when I cried you comforted me and wiped away my tears.
Lover,
In my vision the only greater priority you had above me was the Almighty Father God.
Lover,
Suddenly my vision began to change.
Lover,
In my vision our perfect family started to disappear one by one.
Lover,
In my vision I could no longer see your handsome face.
Lover,
In my vision I could only see you as a silhouette.
Lover,
In my vision I cried. My heart was deeply saddened by the thought of losing you.
Lover,
Do you know what happened when I went to touch your face?
You vanished.
I stood in front of a mirror in my vision and the truth was revealed to me.
Lover,
You have never existed.
Lover,
I have been in love with a fantasy.
Lover,
You are a ghost.
Man,
It is time to let you go.
Time to forget about how many years I believed you were the lover in my mind.
Man,
My vision showed me I have never loved you.
Man,
My vision showed me that you were only a vessel where I hid the lover of my fantasies.
Lover,
You are perfect in every way.
Lover,
I will forever long for you.
Lover,
I will always love you.
I’m sorry Lover,
I have to let you go because I am in love with a ghost that can never truly fulfill me.
Goodbye Lover.
26 Tuesday May 2015
Posted Love and Break Ups
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Betrayed, Break Up, Broken hearted, Confusion, Disappointed, Holding On, Hopeful, Letting Go, Lonely, Love, Mental Illnesses, Obsessed
Dear Lover,
Why do I still call you that name?
You left me long ago and still there is a hold.
You have a hold on me I can’t even understand.
You have a hold on me I can’t even explain.
This connection I still have to you makes me be able to call you my lover for life.
You are my lover even if it is just in my fantasies.
I had a vision for us that in reality didn’t stand a chance.
Lover, Can you please love me back?
I promise I’ve gotten help and things will be different this time.
Should I take the risk and ask you to come back?
Lover, I always think about the good times.
Even the ones more than 10 years back.
Lover, there is something you need to know,
I feel empty without you.
I know I didn’t ask you to stay, but that was because I could not compete with your child.
I’d rather live broken heartedly, than be the reason your child doesn’t have you.
Lover, I still cry often times even though it’s been a while you’ve been gone.
Lover, I will always love you until the end of days,
Even if that means I will never see you again.
21 Thursday May 2015
Posted Love and Break Ups
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Abandoned, Betrayed, Bondage, Break Up, Broken hearted, Chains, Confusion, Delusions, Foolish, Freedom, Holding On, Ignored, Illusions, Letting Go, Love, Moving On
Bondage.
You forgot to untie the ropes.
I let you walk out the door and didn’t remind you to let me go.
Maybe you did it on purpose,
But you didn’t have to.
I would wait 10 years for you.
The blood trickling down my body is warm.
Warm like the fantasies of how I wanted things to be.
Bondage.
Please come and set me free,
Set me free so you can stay with me.
It’s okay that you did things with them before me.
Just come back and the slate will be wiped cleaned.
Bondage.
Something is so wrong.
You left and didn’t look back.
Did I ever earn your love?
It was so easy for you to move on.
I cry tears over and over again,
But you still don’t come back.
Freedom.
I need to be set free.
Even through my tears I let myself find a way out.
The way out was right before me the whole time.
He never really locked the chains.
He wanted me to go the entire time.
Freedom.
I am free even with my scars.
My scars are from foolishness.
My scars are from love.
The foolishness of being in love.
Love is bondage.
Love is freedom.