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Abandoned, Abused, Affairs, Betrayed, Break Up, Broken hearted, Damaged Goods, Defeated, Delusions, Discontent
Sometimes the pain never really goes away. You just learn to live with it.
31 Monday Aug 2015
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Abandoned, Abused, Affairs, Betrayed, Break Up, Broken hearted, Damaged Goods, Defeated, Delusions, Discontent
Sometimes the pain never really goes away. You just learn to live with it.
18 Thursday Jun 2015
Posted My Mind vs. Normal
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Abandoned, Abused, Betrayed, Bipolar II, Boderline Personality Disorder, Coping Skills, Damaged Goods, Defeated, Depression, Disappointed, Discontent, Discouraged, Failure, Judgment, Mental Illnesses, Suicidal Side Effects
Life,
I feel so empty, like a hollow body without a soul.
Life,
I feel so lonely, like there is no one that truly understands; that isn’t like me.
Life,
If I disappeared, would anyone even notice?
People have failed me.
Life,
Some people say they care, but I’m just not sure they know how to love me.
Life,
I promise I’m not purposely isolating myself. That’s just the only way I know how to survive right now.
Life,
I’m not even surviving, I’m merely existing.
Why are you so hard on me?
Life,
I have the power and the plan, so why don’t I just end it now?
Life,
You make me miserable right now.
What can I do to get my soul back?
THIS IS LIFE.
Do you have anything else to offer?
11 Thursday Jun 2015
Posted Failures and Heartache
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Addiction, Disappointed, Discontent, Discouraged, Freedom of Speech, Mental Illnesses, Oppression, Struggles
American Dreaming,
Getting up miserable everyday just to go to a miserable job.
American Dreaming,
Hustling to make 40 hours a week, pushing through my mental conditions, just to make ends not meet, but come close.
American Dreaming,
Rent is paid, bills are paid, 10-year-old car is paid.
Now what’s left?
American Dreaming,
Open the refrigerator.
Do you see how stocked is it?
That’s a joke.
American Dreaming,
Not enough money left to buy groceries, but just enough to buy the necessities; milk, juice, water, bread, and cereal.
American Dreaming,
The reward for being independent and single with no kids is nonexistent.
American Dreaming,
If I go on disability due to my mental disorders, $600 a month won’t be enough to survive.
American Dreaming,
Oppression-make sure the poor keeps getting poorer.
American Nightmare,
Addiction destroying lives on the regular, but the only way to cope is to be high as a kite.
American Nightmare,
No longer just street drugs claiming lives,
Now it’s the expensive doctors with the blue prescription pad.
American Nightmare,
Please wake me up from this reality.
There’s nowhere else to go.
This nightmare is the lesser evil.
One day I won’t be able to deal with it anymore.
Until then, I’ll keep living the American Dream.